I’m boxed in. The decisions that would move me forward aren’t mine to make. So, I’m stuck – and tempted to become discouraged, angry, and resentful.
So, I followed the advice of St Ignatius of Loyola: ask the Lord to “take and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding, my entire will, all I have and possess…Give me only your love and your grace. They are enough for me.”
And the first time I prayed this prayer in earnest a couple of weeks ago, I could feel the Lord breaking up logjams inside me.
Then, friends have sent messages of support:
A good friend told me to have no expectations for my life, except the Lord’s love for me.
A wise Jesuit told me that when I wait with patience and hope, I give glory to God.
Another good friend said that I’m in the tomb on Holy Saturday, awaiting the resurrection.
These are such wonderful images and insights that have been so helpful. My experience is that what I need at any moment or era of my life comes to me.
Because the Lord is always looking for me to care for me.
My challenge is always to be sure that I have found him looking for me in each day.